I love you so, so much and it honestly hurts me so bad to see you like this. I’m not good for you…I always do this to people and I try so hard not to get myself into these situations. You are a wonderful person, inside and out and you deserve someone better who is going to make you shine even more than you already do. You build me up so high I don’t think I can ever even begin to do the same for you. Maybe I’m not strong enough yet, but for now you need someone who can support you and sadly…that’s not me.
Maybe just maybe, it’s better if you stay away from me. That way I can’t hurt you like I can clearly see I am doing.
and I’ll never tell you I wish I could go back to that day on my stairwell where we cried together and convinced ourselves that maybe not being together would be best.
Actually, I’m sick of just getting to the “talking stage” and not moving forward. ONE it honestly sucks getting your hopes up then having someone else tear them down with not texting you out of no where or saying they aren’t really interested.
I’m not saying I’m completely innocent, due to the fact I have done this…muliple times but I am trying to change. People, change doesn’t come over night for christ sake I mean, nothing great even happened in a day (even the world took 5 or 6 or something…) so give me a chance and pray that someone will take a chance on me.